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[....]Different perspective on life? I guess it must have done though as I
told you I had just been through the greatest upheaval in my life just
before I had the heart attack so I can't really tell.
I came face-to-face with my mortality. I realized how fleeting life
is - something I had not thought about previously.
But I can tell you that from what I heard from someone who also had a
heart operation with our group who had been referred to another hospital
in London, nearly all had been through a depression. So I wouldn't be
surprised if you also have just been or are even now going through a
depression. It is normal, I believe to suffer depression after open
heart surgery.
I'm a Vietnam veteran and served in Saigon in 1968. I received a
serious head injury as a result, and I have suffered from dysthemia
(chronic depression) for all of my adult life. I get all my medical
care through the Veterans' Health Care Service in San Diego.
Thank God I never fired a shot in anger. In fact I never fired a single
shot in my whole life and I am glad I didn't even though I was caught in
a war situation or rather a civil war situation. But I remember the
Vietnam War days well, as well as the Civil Rights Movement in the USA.
I realize I have to get out there and start walking. Maybe I'm at a
point in my life where I just don't give a damn.
Yes, you do have to get out otherwise life gets boring and makes one's
depression worse.
Dogs need too much care; cats fend for themselves. We had a dog while
I was growing up, but I've always had cats - usually abandoned
long-hairs - all of my adult life. I had a Silver Persian that I
found abandoned about thirty years ago. Since I'm David, he became
"David's Lloyd George". Found an abandoned Himmilayan in the early
1990s who turned out to have a pedigree. Sir Percy Cat - original
name, "Berryhill's Dewey Morn" Used for breeding. Entered him in a
cat show, and he won first prize. This latest one adopted me this
past January 5. It was a kitten that just appeared on my porch -
can't figure out how she got their. Named her "Pookie".
Pets are great as company; whether cats or dogs though you can
communicate a lot more and a lot better with a dog. But you have to
devote time to them.
I live in a deserted community - don't have many friends at all. I'm
on the beach and own a gorgeous home overlooking the Pacific Ocean.
Hate to give it up, but there's nothing going on down here. Trouble
is, I could move somewhere and experience the same thing. I'm not
much of a social animal, and that's what is good about the Internet
and Usenet.
This is the bane of modern society. We tend to live a lonely life in a
sea of a multitude of people. Luckily for me, I am in email touch with
some of my former classmates while I also have some friends who live
locally and with who I meet several times a week for a chat and then we
go out for a meal which is great. I can do this at will nowadays as I am
not at the moment in a relationship. One of my old girlfriends tried to
get our relationship going again but I was cool to the idea. I also know
one or two really beautiful younger girls I met in real life and I keep
in touch with them using Skype.
I was married twice. Once in my 20s but we were too young - lasted
eight years without children. Split was uneventful. Married an
American gal down here in 2002. She turned out to be an alcoholic
with a serious bi-polar disorder. Much trouble including the cops. I
left her and filed for separation. While I was visiting my family in
Pennsylvania in November, 2002, I got an email from neighbors telling
me that she had been killed in an automobile accident while driving
drunk. So that was that. Haven't ventured back into the dating scene
again, but I go out woth my housekeeper several times a week for a
nice meal. I've had a pretty interesting and eventful life. Hope
there's more to come.
I was married only once and it lasted some 30 odd years but it became a
real burden in the last half a dozen years and I am glad we split. But
getting married once was enough for me. Even in a relationship one loses
one's freedom. I have reached a stage in my life when I want to do my
own thing rather than compromise which one has to do in a relationship.
-- choro
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